In my dream, everything was different in the old neighborhood. The house was gone. Where the road used to continue, now there was swath of green grass. After crossing it, Annie the dog and I found ourselves on a freeway overpass with nowhere to go except to jump off. Annie went first, landing in a pile of broken bones. I followed, knowing I would be badly hurt, too, but I had no choice . . .
I seemed to land unscathed, but I knew I must be injured. I went to get help, but no one seemed to care . . .
This morning, Annie is fine, but my body feels as if I did jump off a bridge and fracture every bone. Welcome to winter plus arthritis and a couple other itis-es.
What spurred this dream? Partially the book I just finished, Raven Stole the Moon by Garth Stein, in which the characters are being chased by shape-shifting spirits, but mostly the email I received Halloween night from a man who lives in my parents’ old neighborhood. He sent me the picture above and a description of what he’d seen. Click here for the Google Earth view of what it used to look like.
The old house where I grew up is gone, torn down except for the frame of the bedrooms. I had to look hard to recognize the site. It appears the old fences and patio are also gone. The fruit trees in the back might be there; it’s hard to tell. A dumpster sits in the driveway, and next to it, so forlorn, sits the old piano, the 1890s cabinet grand passed down to us from Grandpa’s house before it was torn down in the 1960s. An old blanket partially covers the piano, but even in warmer, drier San Jose, that’s not much protection.
I cried. It’s just a house. It was falling apart. It needed new plumbing, wiring, roof, floors, heating, and windows. It had giant cracks from the Loma Prieta earthquake. Once Dad passed away a little over a year ago, our story in that house was done. I know that. In my head. But in my heart, it was still home.
It’s not a surprise. This is what people are doing in the old San Jose neighborhoods. They buy the old houses for a million dollars then tear them down and build new mini-mansions on the property. They want the land, not the house or someone else’s memories. Will the new owners live there or will they “flip it” for millions of dollars? I don’t know.
Why did they bother keeping the bedroom frame? I have heard that people do that so it’s called a “remodel” and not construction of a whole new house. Something about fees and taxes.
So sad. Also such a waste. Before the sale, the realtor arranged for the house to be repainted in and out. New carpet and linoleum and bathroom fixtures were installed. I barely recognized the place when I walked in to pick up a few last boxes last November. And now it’s all gone. Poor people with bare floors could use that creamy new carpet, but into the dumpster it went, along with the wood from the patio and the brick from the barbecue that my father and grandfather built by hand . . .
Why couldn’t the house be sold as affordable housing to a family that does not have a few million dollars in the bank? But that’s not what’s happening in that neighborhood.
As far as I know, not a single Fagalde remains in San Jose. All the descendants of Great-Grandpa Joe and Grandma Louise have either died or moved away to where it’s less crowded and less expensive and where they can find that sense of community that seems to be lost in Santa Clara/Silicon Valley. Just like Fred and I did when we moved to Oregon.
I am so grateful to Dad’s neighbor for letting me and my brother know about the house so we didn’t have to drive there one day without knowing what we would see. Because of COVID, neither of us has gone to San Jose since March. Now we don’t need to.
Although you know I will. I’m too curious to not look. And I will weep some more. Then I will leap off the metaphorical bridge into my own life here in Oregon with my own home that I love, and I will go on with Annie, who is just fine. She has eaten her kibble and gone back to sleep because hey, it’s still dark out, and that’s what dogs do.
In movies and books, people are always returning to homes that have been in the family for generations. Even in Stein’s spooky book, Jenna revisits her grandmother’s house in Alaska. It’s empty except for rodents and ghosts, but it’s still there.
How about you? Is the home where you grew up still standing? Does anyone you know live in it? I’d love to hear your stories.
2 thoughts on “And Then Came the Demolition Crew”
I’m sorry, Sue. It does seem like a waste, especially when you’d spent money fixing it up. It happens all the time here in the Toronto area these days. People buy an older house, tear it down and build a mega-mansion on the same small lot.
My grandmother’s house — which her parents built in the early 1900s — was torn down in early 1998. Nobody had lived there since about 1984 (although we camped out there occasionally for a few summers after that), and they stopped paying taxes on it after a while. We had cleared out the remaining furniture, etc., in 1996, in anticipation of the city claiming & demolishing it. Still, it was kind of a shock when my mom called to say a neighbour had called to tell her they were tearing it down as she was speaking. It’s a small town in a declining, de-populating area, and nobody has bought it. We still stop by whenever we’re in town & walk around the lot & take photos. And I still go back to that old house in my dreams.
We moved around a lot when I was growing up — 11 different houses in 7 different towns by the time my parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary. A couple of those houses have been torn down. We’ve been back inside a couple of the ones that are still there. My sister sent me the realtor listing for the house we’d lived in when we were in elementary school. THAT was a real nostalgia trip!!
Thanks for sharing this, Loribeth. We didn’t move around. We stayed in the same house all our growing up years and my parents stayed until they died. So much history there. But it’s time for a new story with a new family.